I probably should have written before now and I apologize. It is funny, someone asked me today how I am and how things are going and then apologized for asking because everyone is probably asking the same question, or are afraid to ask. Good news on several fronts, I am ok, things are going slowly, and there is no need to feel bad for asking. I will be honest, I have felt better! I decided it must be because we always ask each other how we are doing and most of the time we expect the same response from people. We are fine. I think since people know I am not fine, they are afraid to ask! I may not be "fine", but I'm alive and I am recovering, and I can not ask for more than that!
I have found it refreshing that there are so many ways that I have been blessed by this whole ordeal! It's hard to believe that it has been so easy to see how God is good through this. And at the same time I can see how someone who does not know God could see this in a very negative way. I mean I am 35 and I did have a stoke, 2 dissected arteries, and a long atrial fibrillation episode on my birthday. However, so many people have come around us and provided us with meals, and prayed for us. I have gotten so many cards from people and had friends come and sit with me! My Dad was able to come and be with me during the day and help get housework done and get me food!
I have also found it ironic that this happened while we are in a series about the book of Job at church and I was in the middle of a Bible Study by Priscilla Shirer called, "Discerning the Voice of God". I had been asking God to help me slow down so that I may hear Him more clearly. I guess He needed me to come to a screeching halt!!
Since many are afraid to ask us about how the adoption is going, I will tell you! We are still in the home study process. We got our application turned in and are waiting for our first appointment with our social worker. We are still about 8-10 months out from bringing her home so I have plenty of time to recover!
"You are no different than Job or the Disciples, in that, God will only allow those things which He knows will bring you closer to Him, give Him the glory, and make your heart more like His. It is imperative to truly understand that God will never give you more than you can withstand, and He will always make a way through your storms when you trust in Him."
-Cherie Hill, "Waiting on God"
